| Castles in the Snow We're walking out into the snow not knowing our way back Burning with the endless cold faces cast down tears flow in frozen rivers waters have no bridges and the plain goes on forever and the snow goes on forever and the pain goes on forever they told me I could find you here and so I came but if you were here once that time is memory ah! I am lost I cannot see my way out of these dreams this castle made of ice reflects me off of every surface sometimes I think that, looking into its transparent walls I can see what was what would have been if this cruel weather had never come spilling from my heart But there are worms within us all eating our hearts ah well I'll rest within the palace one night longer dance with my dream prince while in the world I'm dying by Shallinda Comments: In this poem the "we" refers to me, but I have been fractured into two people. I went to the far north to find an old friend, who I had been told resided in the beautiful capital city of that country. Eventually I reached the city, but the stories I had heard about it did not hold true; instead of reuniting with my ancestors/people from my past, I found no one there. During the journey I became ill but I would not stop seeking the city, despite the complete lack of encouraging signs along the way. The sickness did not cause my split, but it made it worse, my dreams and hopes coalescing into one person while the real me weakened in silence. The prince of my dreams kept promising to show me to my friend, but days passed and he did not do so, providing me with luxury and entertainment and leading me to believe that he was in love with me. As I neared physical death, the prince's face became a death mask and I knew the truth. That was when I finally got up the resolve to go home, my dream self fleeing the prince in terror while my real self turned her feet homeward with only the faintest strength. That was when my friend started appearing in my dreams, and though he did not speak, he put his arm around me and made me feel protected.
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