Breath of Darkness

It never seems that i'll get a break
from the sadness that fills my life
allways falling even further than before
when i thought i couldn't drowned any more 
gasping for air I search to find my soul  
surrounded by nothing and reaching for something
but there is no search light to help me see
maybe it's because there is nothing there for me
loneliness seems to be the only thing in store for me

I'm drifting through the sea of darkness
drownding and clawing out at nothingness  
dreaming of better days that never come
remembering past lives that came undone
unglued and lost pieces of a puzzle
a picture of a perfect life fades away
                                         
I sleep and i dream of nightmares
to wake up to a living hell
surrounded by mistakes and lies i tell
myself it will be ok even though
I know that nothingness will envoke my
soul
again

a life preserver is nowhere in sight
so i take a deep breath of darkness
and i drownd to feel something