I am nowhere to be felt to be held to be loved to be touched to be whole to be found to be me to be anything to be simply Gone Empty Void Motionless Absent Vacant Alone Alone Alone in a world flying by floating by stagnant stationary so impenetrable so hard so dead so hurt so hated so sick so so so Alone F* You F* Me F* God F* it All How did I get here How do I get out How do I survive How do I feel this How love hurts me How I have no answers I have no knowledge Just pain just love just loneliness just longing just yearning just aching just dying just wanting arms to hold me whispers to soothe me breath to fill me love to stir me Eyes Soul God this hurts Missing Ending Eternity Pain Love me Where have I gone I want to love believe love in love for love lost love new love old love real love eternal love innocence joy peace grace God where have I gone help me find my way back to myself whoever that is I do not care anymore I just want to feel love feel whole feel me oh please….