12 years of marriage, two wonderful kids, then he breaks my heart.
Unable to understand, unable to cope, I decide that we must part
The misery was lifted and a sudden rush of freedom felt within
A new desire to acheive the goals that I couldnt when with him
As time moves on I find myself going through the motions of life
Not with the vigour that I expected but slow and forced and grim
I realise that Im not used to living all alone
A year later the loneliness gnaws inside my bones
An admirer may come and bring light into my life but it fades so quickly
the moment they go. Never knowing when I'll see them next
If its soon then thats great, If theyve something better to do then its
wretched
This is not living, its existing at best
What I really need is a partner to share my life, thoughts and burdens.
Two people encouraging each other, loving each other and sacrificing for each
other
The kids are here to keep me busy all day
But as night sets in there is nothing to say
Because no one is here, no one to listen, no one today
No one tonight
so I'll just pin my hopes on tommorrow.

Marina